Peak Week!

Hey everyone, peak week is finally here! Let me say that I have mixed feelings right now. I'm very excited for my show and even though I don't feel totally ready I am happy with the progress I have made so far. The cravings are starting to get real. I am currently not eating sodium, artificial sweeteners and any diet pop. I was eating dinner with my husband and kids and I just wanted to cry. I'm eating plenty but I'm tired and I just want anything that I am not able to have. I would die for a froyo right now. This is usually my cheat day and I think mentally that was tough for me because I have conditioned myself to think that I get a good dinner and froyo once a week and this week I don't. For those who have no idea about peak week I really recommend this video by Layne Norton. I am feeling tired and my emotions are all over the place. I just want to lay in bed under the covers and sleep or dream of food and cry. I am tired of so called "Clean Food". My calories are still good but I'm tired. Another hard thing is that I have this show next weekend and then I have another show in 4 weeks so I know that I can't just go back to normal meals after the show, I'm still in prep. I am excited for after the show. My goal is to do a lean bulk and try and put on some muscle this winter. I think prep is mentally tough also because I had an idea of where I thought that I would be at the end and I'm much leaner that I ever thought. I still have problem areas like my thighs and butt but my upper body is getting very lean. What little boobs I had before are now gone. Just remember to trust the process. I'm going to stick with my trainers plans for this week and I'm excited to see where I will end up.